As the strata falls

 as the strata falls

 -or-

consciousness, not allowed

  the idea, oh fucking yes, that idea. i am inundated w/ that idea. it's fucking great, won't be troubling no he won't, not that massively nice fell, not he sir. just no indeedeee....

1, 2, 3 baby come back to me
i got the freashest lines you ever did read
  whoah-oh
this is how the story goes

saw seth on the rail the other day. i love seth, yet we rarely talk any more. really.
so slow-stepped on the lede, but yeah, seth and i talked, conversated, had a moment, talked about oxford commas. we chatted.
did i mention throwing words around w/ my main (mostly lost) man, seth? i forget sometimes cause all i really seem to want to talk about is seth.
oh a transcript, something i can provide as some sort of truth supporting what i claim? let me check w/ seth.

now i conclude:

seth: it's always nice to visit...

me: yeah, the thing about visits are that they are so temporary, which really shouldn't be a big deal but then you start parcelling out memories of the last visit than compare/contrast the real vs imagined time dileneation of these visists and the import becomes increasingly tragic. i mean seriously i miss a lot of people a lot of time, but i am (probably, no definitely over/(thinking/ theorizings_ still sad. not like depressed sad, but yeah i gotta do some shit like work out, read internet comments, or drink copiously, cause i like life and want to feel and stuff, but just seriously sometimes i feel overwhelmed. and then i feel guilty for feeling overwhelmed, like i did something wrong to not feel right about shit that goes on in my life and mind, i feel like an asshole when i know objectively i did nothing wrong but someone has to feel something, right?

s: mmm, sounds like life is your typical life?

m: and then some. but i gots jokes!

s: you were a always a riot! so much better when you are amped up and being pos..

m: compositive! it's a new word mangling, mash-up i was thinking about the other day. i mean seriously take the word apart, look at origins, go to dictionary.com and you will see it's absolutely not there! it's called hueristic linguistics  man, and it is so not made up and obscure that it validates everything i believe when i said i want to ham it up w/ my man seth.

s: so that's why i was called hear...

m: someone called you? i seriously was just thinking about talking to you, and then you showed up. like i think this is a fever-dream or something, cause if it's real i am going to look ridiculous...or sound ridiculous, read ridiculous...i guess i am just all kinds of ridiculous. but i'm glad you're here. even if not real, your presence makes me excited...and probably a lot ridiculous.

s: {inaudible}

m: EXACTLY!

[noticeable pause and heavy sighing(?)]

m: but since you are here, let me let you in on some stuff i've been gleaning, you know, the good shit. you ready?

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Phil would have turned 45 today.  I had this short writing of his stashed away in an old email thread.  August 27, 2016.